connecting the dots

Be Free

Sat, 25 May 2013 10:57:14 +0800

If anyone ever say to me,-why change, why not just follow what your parents or cultures hv prescribed you (and many of us just follow blindly) - I would strongly suggest them to see how Allah condemn the Jews and Christians for the same reply. Allah even say - do you not think? Do you not see? Do you not learn?

If the basis of following is because culture dictate so, then be blind forever. The Islam way is to seek knowledge, to contemplate, to challenge, to strive to come out from stupidity.

Be free. The only thinks qualify for ‘sami’na wa atho’na’ are words from Allah, authentic tradition or sunnah of the prophet and khulafa’ rasyidiin. Otherwise we can always put some degree of thinking and question the ‘why’ underlying each action.

Shame that the vast information available to us aren’t converted to knowledge. As asShafie has mentioned, ‘lm or knowledge is what you practice, not just what you know. …

Again, be free. Or else get ready with some answer when Lord Almighty ask on the day of Judgement. We probably don’t want to give the same answer as the Jews & Nasrani.

GenY

Sat, 25 May 2013 00:34:38 +0800

It’s difficult for a genY like me to completely abandon things that hv shaped us. It has became an intrinsic to our lives. I achieved my target hv to live without Facebook for almost a month, but was proved to be just difficult because I need to get in contact with friends that are thousands of miles away. And a lot of things were missed because I didn’t get group notification. Nevertheless, it is an achievement and I know that I can still discipline myself.

I need to simplify my virtual profile, and trim down as much as I can. Always something to remember, my generation is drowning in information but starved with knowledge.

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Reflection

Tue, 21 May 2013 20:25:33 +0800

To see a World in a Grain of Sand
And a Heaven in a Wild Flower,
Hold Infinity in the palm of your hand
And Eternity in an hour.

This poem by W. Blake is a perfect companion at a time like this, in a perfect place like this. Post night shift has always provide the needed feeling of vulnerability, hence I prefer solitude, time of my own to see the world in the most logical and perfect sense.

The debt that all men pay is death. It is certain, but how come so many of us are so attached to it. We love the world so much that death has became so distant and alien to us.

W. Blake, I believe described what many of us sense at certain moment in our lives. Many western thinkers hv came to term it as spirituality. A colleague, while finishing her study in Cambridge shared this profound moment she experienced, that a single and simple thought of Him Almighty made her cried inconsolably. So did many of us. That perfect little moment give many of us strength and reason. This what gives people strength to wake up in the middle of the night to experience that moment again and again.

I am quite certain that W Blake as a catholic would hv certainly wanted to share this wonderful moment with others through his writing, so that other enlightened soul searching for peace knows that this feeling is universal. He Lord Almighty is watching us all, and He is very close (alQuran, many verses). The sensing/zikr of Him when looking even the smallest item as grain of sand, and the blissful joy while seemingly contemplating upon a small part of creation…. We can experience that Eternity & Infinity. It is the most beautiful moment.

And here I am making this pilgrimage every now and then to this sacred place, knowing that I am at peace as I am making i’tikaf here. Hidayah is all His to give and I know, to Him that I will return. Every single day, I strive to be a better servant for Him, praying that one day…insyaAllah one day …I’ll be in Jannah and granted the wish to meet Him (alHadith that speaks of this clarify that this is the ultimate wish a servant can ask in Jannah) …

And the most logical sense of this life … to serve Him as instructed by Quran and Hadith, and to live this world as He please. Not as I wish or as I want to. But human being never free of desires, hence the guideline was provided to us. The Quran gives more than guideline, it gives inspiration and promises needed to wade through this murky world.

And His most beloved creation, Muhammad SAW’s words remain strong as my guide throughout my time of uncertainty.

Be mindful of Allah and Allah will protect you. Be mindful of Allah and you will find Him in front of you. If you ask, ask Allah. If you seek help, seek help in Allah. Know that if the nation were to gather together to benefit you with something, they would not benefit you except with that which Allah has already recorded for you. If they gather to harm you by something, they would not be able to harm you by anything except what Allah has already recorded against you. The pens have been lifted and the pages have dried.

- shafie, masjid biru -

And, finally...

Sun, 19 May 2013 17:41:53 +0800

As I am becoming more certain of the career path that I am choosing … I feel at peace. Finally there’s something I can focus on. And to make me feel even better, the path I am choosing… , i can always do the ‘other’ exam. But this will certainly change my course for this near future. Smile smile smile.

When I am clouded with uncertainty, I chose a Certina. But looking back at my choice, as the Da Vinci aptly put it, simplicity is the ultimate sophistication. And as I delve further, I understand myself even more. I don’t like anything too complex & complicated. There’s nothing messy on my Certina, Apple certainly embrace simplicity, the way i strive hard to look at my life, religion & culture in the simplest pure form, free from cultural and generations of modification, and this includes other choices as well. The beauty comes naturally … and it is my belief that this idea of simplicity will go further in my life.

I hope so. as my 27th approaching this 27th, and as I am becoming more certain of my choice, and as I started to understand my own decision making process when presented with choices….. It is time for me to close this chapter of life. Another dot is connected, the picture is even clearer …and I can be at peace.

(Something I haven’t understood yet, why on earth am I so interested in economy and nation building, and how did I get involve with property investment?)

As I am holding this pause button of my life, it is time for me to reflect back on the picture that has been… and find the next dot to be connected. InsyaAllah.

A hospital caseeconomist.com Sweden is leading the world in...

Sun, 19 May 2013 12:24:32 +0800

A hospital case
economist.com

Sweden is leading the world in allowing private companies to run public institutions
SAINT GORAN’S hospital is one of the glories of the Swedish welfare state. It is also a laboratory for apply …

M i M P i

Sun, 19 May 2013 07:15:09 +0800

Masih belum nak kebah demam. Tp bila renung kembali pesakit2 smlm Di icu/hdw … mereka menunggu saat kematian, aku syukuri kesihatan y ada. Seorang makcik ‘no surgical intervention’ tapi ‘active resus’- there’s a managements dilemma there. So are we suppose to continuously transfuse her with all blood products until the bleeding miraculously stop then? I hope it does stop but judging by the large fresh malaena again last night, hr 150, bp barely holding at 90/50 with support …I’m a bit skeptical. One DKA aunty plak, despite all the resus measure, bicarb infusion, triple inotropes, she is still severely acidotic, needing crrt, and barely holding on…but at least her family members accepting she is ‘nazak’.

Along my path in hSb, I met Dr Zezy & dr Shanthi…they both just maybe the ones that’ll shape my future. As I am reaching certainty…they might just the inspiring figures I need.

Oh ye…mimpi. Sudah 3 mlm. Mimpi y hampir sama. Kerna aku tahu mimpi spt ini mengganggu hati dan akan membuat aku gelisah di siang hari, bangun aku terus utk munajat diberi petunjuk. Aku tahu mimpi mainan tidur, mimpi bisikan syaitan tetapi utk org y baik2..mimpi itu petunjuk (jauh sekali utk aku). Kerana sebuah kelibat aku bermimpi agaknya. Tp pengajarannya buatku, biar tenang memahami kehidupan, jika tidak.. pasti akan mengganggu permainan2 tidur. Hidup ini sendiri adalah mimpi, menanti saat bangkit nanti bila maut menjemput.

…hmmm… tuhan, biar hati ini tenang pd y bukan ketentuanMu, tenangkan hatiku pd aturanMu, bantuku memahami takdirMu agar indah tadbir hidupku. Hingga tiba masanya……..hingga saat itu….

D E M A M

Thu, 16 May 2013 21:49:44 +0800

One way of seeing is that I must hv caught this infection from my patient. In that case it might be some nasty bugs going around in ICU. Or it maybe just this viral illness that has affected some of my colleague as well.

The way I was taught to see sakit - it’s a reminder. It’s a way of God saying, my servant you are mortal. No matter how you keep yourself fit- jogging, lift up your dumbbell etc everyday, you still are going to die. Be thankful with the health and provision that I’ve bestowed upon you for your time in this world is limited. The taste of this world will end.

Well, it’s this kind periodic reminder that should keep all of us remember, that should keep me remember - I WILL DIE one day. AM I READY for it?

Hahaha.. Laugh all you can, but as my 27th birthday fast approaching this 27th May, I know …. I am counting the days left for me in this world. It might not even days… Maybe … maybe tomorrow, I won’t wake up from this illness. Lord, be my death the rest I’ve been waiting for. You are my Lord. You are the Almighty. …

If tomorrow I don’t wake up, Faris Apak & Udon, that property project of us, it’s all under my name. I don’t know if this piece of writing can stand in court to say that you guys are part of it. Hehehe …well I should hv prepared sth for this as well. But … AsSalam …zzzzzzz!

"On the authority of Abdullah bin Abbas, who said : One day I was behind the prophet and he said..."

Thu, 16 May 2013 17:26:40 +0800

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On the authority of Abdullah bin Abbas, who said : One day I was behind the prophet and he said to me:

“Young man, I shall teach you some words [of advice] : Be mindful of Allah, and Allah will protect you. Be mindful of Allah, and you will find Him in front of you. If you ask, ask of Allah; if you seek help, seek help of Allah. Know that if the Nation were to gather together to benefit you with anything, it would benefit you only with something that Allah had already prescribed for you, and that if they gather together to harm you with anything, they would harm you only with something Allah had already prescribed for you. The pens have been lifted and the pages have dried.”

p narrated by Termithi, who said it is true and fine hadith

In a version other than that of Tirmithi it reads:

p “..Be mindful of Allah, you will find Him before you. Get to know Allah in prosperity and He will know you in adversity. Know that what has passed you by was not going to befall you; and that what has befallen you was not going to pass you by. And know that victory comes with patience, relief with affliction, and ease with hardship.”

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- Muhammad SAW

The Most Successful People Take Small, Smart Steps Toward Their...

Wed, 15 May 2013 20:07:26 +0800

The Most Successful People Take Small, Smart Steps Toward Their Goals
Paul B. Brown, forbes.com

Lives their anyone anywhere old enough to work who has not had an idea for a new company? Who has not said on at least one occassion, “someone could make a fortune if they’d just…”
So how come we have so few entrepreneurs?
Study the t…

Sendiri di tgh malam. Pantry HDW. Pesakit dtg dan pergi. Sampai...

Wed, 15 May 2013 03:07:57 +0800

Sendiri di tgh malam. Pantry HDW. Pesakit dtg dan pergi. Sampai ajal, pasti akan pergi. Maut tak kira siapa kita, Tan Sri atau Datin, Professor atau cleaner, tua atau muda, kaya atau miskin …. Sampai masa, terputuslah diri dari kenikmatan dunia. Hilang seronok bersukaria, bergaul mesra, entah dimana kekasih hati, entah dimana keluarga dan saudara. Saat itu, baru menyesal …apa persediaan y telah dibuat. Tp maaf, soalan itu terlambat. Ketika sihat walAfiat, harta & asset mengangkat martabat - tak pernahkah terlintas soalan itu? Tak pernah mahu berusaha melazimi masjid, tak pernah mahu memperbanyak amalan sunat. Sangkanya …sikit2, y wajib sudah lah. Begitulah agaknya org Melayu kita, sampaikan soal syurga & neraka pun tak mahu usaha, sekadar menunggu kirim doa dari zuriat dan saudara y signifikasinya kecil nak dibanding dgn amalan sendiri yang sudah dilalaikan & dilupakan semasa hidup didunia.

Ah apa sahaja y aku mengarutkan mlm2 buta. Mata dah kuyu.

Aku yang menunggu masa meninggalkan dunia sementara. Semoga pergiku bersedia, lalu persediaan utk matiku sudah aku mulakan.

…zzzzzzzz…..

"By day 12 of ICU/HDW in HSB, I am finding myself starting to have a deeper understanding of..."

Mon, 13 May 2013 22:13:41 +0800

“By day 12 of ICU/HDW in HSB, I am finding myself starting to have a deeper understanding of physiology. Dr Shanthi, Dr Prem, Dr Syamala, Dr Rai, Dr Kamal … They are awesome!”

- Excited to read more on physiology. btw the topic tonight is Life Threatening Asthma. Huh ..that pt had pco2 of 200+, pH 6.7. Awesome case to go through.

Fears grow over deadly new virus

Mon, 13 May 2013 07:20:54 +0800

Fears grow over deadly new virus:

bbc.co.uk

The World Health Organization warns that it appears “increasingly” likely that the new coronavirus can be passed between people in close contact.

"Long live Tan Sri Shahrir Samad and Dato Saifuddin Abdullah. Finally, there are progressive people..."

Sun, 12 May 2013 15:08:02 +0800

“Long live Tan Sri Shahrir Samad and Dato Saifuddin Abdullah. Finally, there are progressive people in UMNO that understand reality. I love to have you two in Selangor.”

- happy sket that there are still good people in UMNO

Kid President Sends Heartfelt Mother’s Day Salute to...

Sun, 12 May 2013 13:44:28 +0800

Kid President Sends Heartfelt Mother’s Day Salute to Moms
Kate Sommers-Dawes, mashable.com

Kid President, the youthful powerhouse in a power suit who knows how to give one heck of a motivational pep talk, has taken his inspirational talents to Mother’s Day.The video message, sent “on behalf of all the kids in the world,” shows Kid…

"Now I’ve got no money. I parked my money in properties. Ek …"

Sun, 12 May 2013 11:56:26 +0800

“Now I’ve got no money. I parked my money in properties. Ek …”

- mengira balance dlm account

"Anyway, who is this Azmin Ali guy? This Azmin must know that PAS & DAP hv 15 each. So if both..."

Sun, 12 May 2013 10:24:01 +0800

“Anyway, who is this Azmin Ali guy? This Azmin must know that PAS & DAP hv 15 each. So if both parties prefer Khalid you better shut up. I hv long doubt PKR motives. Do we hv to remind you power is amaanah. It is ‘taklif’ rather than ‘tasyrif’.”

- tak suka Azmin

Sometimes doctors should just shut up Benjamin W. Corn,...

Sun, 12 May 2013 10:15:35 +0800

Sometimes doctors should just shut up
Benjamin W. Corn, qz.com

There’s a new cacophony outside my office, different from the old, discordant tones of our radiotherapy department. A new chief of pediatric oncology has attracted scores of new patients to our medical center. The entire milieu of…

We Are Not Corrupt

Sun, 12 May 2013 08:58:33 +0800

Aku nak tergelak jugak la kan. All the well known individual cases. And boleh plak one of those people said SPRM tak layak nak siasat saya. Or tell me, how on earth my classmate has RM30 million when she was 12?

Or consider this …(all fanatics and macai are blind of these) - 1/ salah guna media massa utk kegunaan parti 2/ salah guna taxpayers money utk kegunaan parti 3/ or the stupidest maybe perbelanjaan kahwin anak masuk dlm akaun negeri

Atau sebenarnya kena belajar dulu definisi kerajaan, parti politic, NGO, taxpayers money, executive power etc. Come to think of it- cikgu sejarah aku memang terer mengajar kot. She defined each of this word clearly.

Well … I pray that our governing party will change for better. Prosecute those who are corrupt. Jgn pilih bulu and you will regain Rakyat’s trust. It probably not so much we choose the other party, it’s probably you gave us no other choice. Why not choose the lesser of 2 evils?

"Do I want to re-activate my Facebook? If so, then I hv to ensure that my virtual identity remain as..."

Sun, 12 May 2013 01:39:58 +0800

“Do I want to re-activate my Facebook? If so, then I hv to ensure that my virtual identity remain as a tool, not more than that. But for now, I prefer to keep it deactivated.”

- thinking of the bad things that will follow with facebooking.